Sun 1 Nov 2009
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Today has been one of those days when I’ve just had this overwhelming feeling want to come over me. I didn’t get done the things I needed to get done this weekend. But I had such a bad headache this morning I took a nap this afternoon. I have my first choir performances this week…a full week of school, extra meetings here and there. Next weekend Lauren goes away for the weekend and we’re still trying to get through the verses for her to go. I have an all day event next Saturday with choir kids. It’s just one of those times when I want to say “Calgon take me away”. Lydia said to me…”mom why don’t you just take a day off…” to which I replied…I can’t. This is the time of year when I can’t afford to miss even one class period with my kids, we’re too close to program time. Frankly it almost felt like a spiritual attack…meant to throw me off and get me to panic. So…tonight I pulled out the post it notes and started making the to do lists for this week…I’m trying to prioritize what actually needs to get done tonight and at least get that stuff done.
Tonight I sat at church and listened to Lisa Baca talk about Volunteering at the community hope center and I had this idealic image come to my mind of the stay at home mom who has the time during the day while her kids are gone at school to go do that kind of stuff…along with being a room parent, having lunch with a friend, actually exercising, etc. I had to tell myself…maybe someday Ruth. Volunteering anything beyond what I’m required to do is pretty much in over my head. Lisa did a great job and it’s a great cause so I’m not saying this to be down on her…it just kind of added into my overwhelming blues I guess:).
The girls have really been at each other lately…that doesn’t help either. I actually had them stay in the car this morning while I went into church and told them they needed to hammer out their differences before coming into church, I just couldn’t take the insanity of going to church and worshipping God when we couldn’t even show love to one another this morning. They eventually came in…after I sent Lauren’s Sunday School teacher out to the car to see if she was ready to come to class. We all took naps today which was a good thing, even with the extra hour of sleep last night that didn’t really seem to help much.
All normal stuff…I know.
The one thing that I did get done this weekend that I felt good about was my preparation for my devotional with the 20 something ladies at our church in a couple of weeks. I prepared a short devotional about tea cups…and how our life is like a tea cup…and then I even went online and purchased each lady a tea cup to go with the talk (nothing real fancy…but still hopefully something that will be meaningful…)
Anyway, I hope your weekend was great! And here comes Monday…it’s one of those “I can do all things through CHrist weeks for me I can tell…” I”ll make it, always have, always will.
Love,
Ruth
