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Sometimes I speak too soon and the last 24 hours has demonstrated that to me clearly. Yesterday I was feeling good about facing my technology giant and winning…and then last night out of the blue I was printing off coloring sheets for school (musical instruments) when all of a sudden I had a red screen come up and start telling me in quick succession that my pc had a virus, it had been contaminated…and suddenly I was shown all of these viruses on my computer…and I had not a clue what to do. So I clicked a few things, thinking it would take care of it…which put me into a viscious cycle that I couldn’t seem to get out of. It was 9:30pm…too late for me to call a phone a friend…especially the one I would’ve wanted to call Todd…I knew if I called I would probably wake up four sleeping boys and I couldn’t bear making them go through that. So…after a bit of panic, thinking that my computer was never going to come back to me and after I chastised myself good and hard for not backing up anything like you’re supposed to…I ended up putting in information…to try and pay for a company to take care of the problem. In hindsight…I should’ve just stopped and not done anything…but seriously it felt like I had to respond now or else. After it was all said and done I had this uneasy feeling and I still had the same problem with the computer…but I had this terrible feeling that someone or something had just been given access to my personal life. And then I went to bed…ok it took me a little while to settle down to restful sleep…but it was getting late and I didn’t know what else to do. So…I went to sleep and tried to just trust God with it all.
This morning I got two phone calls from my credit union…saying that I had fraudalent charges on my debit card. I had this strange feeling that might happen, and I have to say that I’m always impressed how fast my credit union picks up on anything strange. I mean the charge was only one dollar…but since it was from Cypress…which is actually over in Egypt I guess…they seemed to think that was a bit strange:). The other charge that was supposed to come out…49.95 was refused…the company may try it again…but as for now…my debit card has been shut down and now I have to get a whole new card.
What a mess! My computer still has issues…and I’m hopeful that Todd will be able to work them out…but for now I feel a little more rational about the situation. So…today was a bit crazy. On top of that I have a viral infection of some kind…I thought it might be allergies but the doctor told me today that it’s more likely a virus. I barely made it through the day at school. It was one of those days where I did the minimal and trusted that it would be enough. Thankfully this week is ISAT testing so I don’t have any 3,4,5 grade classes…what a blessing and a much needed break. I don’t have a temp, but have an itchy throat, cough, and general achiness and fatigue. On top of that today I got a tetanus shot for trips coming up this summer.
Anyway, none of this is very uplifting…but all that to say…I think I will survive:). And things could always be worse.
This morning my devotions were about Job…and I found it interesting that Satan pointed out to God that yes Job was a loyal follower of God…but of course he was his faith had never been really tested. So…God seems to say…ok he’s fair game, test him and see what he’s made of. And I know that in the end Job has enough genuine pure faith to pull himself through with the help of God. Made me think about what I said about hard times yesterday…I think God is fine with us having to go through hard times from time to time. He feels our pain…it’s not like he’s laughing at us or anything…but I don’t think it rocks His world as if it’s a national crisis. I was reminded…naked I came into this world and naked I will leave…everything else is just window dressing and not that important. I needed that reminder with all of the computer crisis going on in my home.
So…tonight I’m just taking it easy, an early to bed…6pm wouldn’t be too early the way I’m feeling tonight. Only 24 more days til spring break!!
Love,
Ruth